The Sickness Continues

No one has my luck...

Yeah yeah you may think you do.. BUT YOU DONT..

NO you don't.. trust me

Right when we are smooth sailing from a stomach virus it comes and knocks on our door


BUM BUM BUM

The flu.

It hit Jon first taking him out.. then Madalynn, then me of course as I was the nurse. Morgan got it last. (Issak stayed flu free)



Getting through a week of that was wonderful, but Saturday Morgan started coughing hard, it got increasingly worse i took her to the doctor to discover that she had Bacterial pneumonia.Breathing treatments every 2 hours Steroids and a very tired Mommy. Sigh..



I have missed 2 weeks of work with no pay mind you. Depressed doesn't even begin to cover my feelings right now.I am tired, overwhelmed, heartbroken, and pretty alone. Sigh.. but outside of the sickness.. we had a pretty crazy January. Issak just completed his first full week of school in 2011, BUT WAIT there is forecast in the snow tomorrow.. LOL ...We have had ridiculous weather..

My weight loss is a no go so far... I lost 5lbs then gained 2 the lost 4 then gained 2.. Sigh I have been stressed because of the sick crap and basically eating whatever is in the house instead of eating the healthy stuff. I am starting a cleanse Monday to get rid of the toxins. Wish me luck.

Maddy will not sleep. she has been staying up until the wee hours of the morning.. IE why I am typing this so late. She is up roaming the halls.. my little Satan.. LOL




If you will excuse me I have to go start a breathing treatment because Daddy forgot it before bed.. Sigh February PLEASE BE GENTLE

What a life...

New year.. New rules!

So my new years resolution was to keep my blog updated monthly... So here goes :) Our Christmas here at the Harris house was wonderful. Full of live, and the spirit. I am so very sad it is over. New years was probably one of the best and most entertaining parties we have had. I am in love with being surrounded by people I love, who love me as well. So now it's 2011. another resolution of mine was to run a marathon this year. I signed up for the music city marathon in April, and I also plan on doing one for Breast Cancer awareness. Wish me luck, I have another 40 lbs togo until goal!! Issak is getting bigger ever day.. I CAN NOT BELIEVE he is 7.. My little first grader is growing up, and it baffles me!



Maddy... Oh boy.. my little spit fire. She is getting big and growing up, and.. just.. WOW she is definitely paying me back 10-fold to the kind of child i was.. DEFINITELY



and Morgan... My sweet angel... She is walking, talking, on wole milk... She is nto a baby anymore, and I HATE IT... I do not want her to grow up. I miss her dependency.. but she is still so sweet, and oh how she loves her mommy.. She will be a year old in about a month....



There is a look into the last month or so of our life... More to come

The true "meaning" of a crap day.

So.. Everyone's bound to have them ever so often. A day that throws off everything you have ever known about bad days. Well let me address the wonderful weekend I had planned. First with good intentions, and family time in mind, My 3 day weekend was to consist of, Spending Saturday with my family. We were going to go visit my Grandparents, go pick up my best Friends daughter (might as well be my niece) Hannah, and go to the Park. What happened would actually break my heart. I was pushing Hannah and Maddy in the swings. Morgan was in her stroller watching right next to me.. LOVING IT.. of course (She is such an amazing baby) Issak was being pushed by daddy. It was a GEORGEOUS day! Maddy decided she wanted to go "push" Issak. I told Jon and got Maddy out of her swing.. She walked the very short distance between Jon and I, and at the last minute decided she wanted to swing in the swing next to Issak. She darted out in front of Issak before Jon or I had a secod to react, and Issak t-boned her with his feet directly in the chest. This made her do this flip sort of action and land at Issaks feet directly on her face. It was AWFUL. Maddy laid there for what seemed like 45 minutes (but was truley maybe 5 seconds) Jon grabbed her, she was not berathing. Issak had knocked the wind out of her when he hit. I grabbed her and ran to the van (which was across the park). I couldn't see her little face it was so covered in dirt mud and blood. After I got all the dirt off I realkized her nose was 3 times what it should be. At this point I am freaking.. ALSO can I just say how amazing it was that people came to help my husband with the other 3 kids, and got the Park police to come help me.


--------> side note: People can be jerks ok? But in this instance, it seriously let me know that there really are good people here. God has out them here. And God bless them for helping.


I took Maddy to the ER while my AMAZINGLY AWESOME husband took the other 3 children home... might I add ( a 7 month, 1 year and 6 year old..) Poor guy. At the er they did an Xray and Cat Scan to determine if she had a concussion. No concussion but Yes her nose is broken.. My poor baby.


I AM SUCH A CRAPPY MOM
HOW COULD I LET THIS HAPPEN.
MY DAUGHTER IS GOING TO HATE ME!
I..
Am....
such...
a....
BAD....
mom!
It makes me want to cry, but I had to be strong for her to let her know it was going to be ok. After a demerol shot and lots of loving from the nurses and doctor, we went home.

---------> Side note... FYI: Demerol= HYPER
Thus ended a horrific Saturday.
We missed church Sunday.. (it seems I have done way to much of that lately) Kids being sick, Jon having gigs etc.. Too much going on..
I...
SUCK...!
Jon had a gig so he was gone all Sunday. I was here with the kiddos.. primarily it was a great morning, That afternoon we went to "Hoot and Yaya's" On the way... Jon stopped for Gas, the gas station was not working.. Yes not working
SERIOUSLY!
After waiting for about 15 minutes, we drove to another Gas station, upon the arrival there Jon realizes he left his gas cap on the top of the truck... and it is well.. GONE.. GREAT
REALLY??
WHO HAS THIS LUCK??
ME!!
I
DO!
We made it to "Hoot and YaYa's" and the kids rode an old power wheel chair of P.O's (yeah that's how we do it)




We stopped for Chinese (me NOT EVEN getting what I wanted.. DARN DIET), came home to find that the seal of our toilet is broken. Yeah broken..
SOOOO the water keeps running, and has been all day apparently..
CAN'T
WAIT
FOR
MY
WATER
BILL!
We went to bed only to be woke up the entire night by a little girl (Morgan) who just didn't feel like sleeping.
Monday, feeling exhausted and a tad bit crabby, we still ventured to the zoo. Want to know how stupid I am? Try attempting the zoo, on labor day, with 3 kids, one of which has a broken nose. HA HA do you know how this ended? We actually had to leave after barely making it to the bamboo, (for those of you who don't know that's not even a fourth of the way through it) (Thank goodness for passes) We went to Apple bees to get some food, The hostess wouldn't seat us (we were with our good friends Chris and Rustin and their little guy Landyn.. and yes we drug them through this horrid day) We asked the guy if he could combine some tables, and he said no "fire regulations" We finally (after 20 minutes) got a table. No silver ware, not menus.. etc.. waited 10 minutes for our drinks.. They got Jon's order wrong once, Chris's wrong twice. Brought me no dressing for my salad. And the Manager basically didn't care.. UGGGHHHH
REALLY
COULD THIS BE ANY WORSE...
I MEAN C'MON
We hit traffic on the way home..Once we got there and I fixed dinner we all sat down to eat where Landyn immediately puked all over himself. (poor guy) He then acted as if he was having an asthma attack.. ETC His parent ended up having to take him to the er.
Now its TUESDAY.. and 2 of my kids have woke up with fevers.. the others nose is broken.

This was such a disheartening weekend. I did however enjoy spending time with my family and my kids. It was so nice seeing my husband and being at home, and getting a lot of chores done.

Weekends like this, make me appreciate the normalcy of my life, when we do not have complicated weekends and stuff is just normal.

Praying for a better weekend coming up..

Busy Bee J!

Down and out

You ever have such a busy life and busy schedule that when the end of the week comes, you look back wondering what you really accomplished?? Yeah that is where I am at right now. I am just so tired of busy ness. Sometimes I feel like I can't even enjoy the family I have created. You know it is not just my schedule.. My husband is pretty busy as well.. I know other families go through this rut, but I almost feel like the rut is never ending. Work and trying get fit, excercising, baths healthy dinners etc.. Sometimes its just too much. I honestly feel like sometimes I am drowning. Please do not mistake this for complaining, because I am not. I love my kids, my husband, my house, my life, but some days I am so bombarded, overwhelmed, and just.... well... tired. I know other people go through this.. Is there a way to organize your life more? I don't have gaps to put things most of the time. I know this wil get better, but at this moment, I am just B L A H

Never....and I mean EVER again

I will do everything in my power to help in anyway possible to find a cure for CF, because the hurt and pain i see it cause, it just shouldn't exist.... People haven't even heard of Cystic Fibrosis... I can't be idle anymore.. I can't wait for someone else to do it.. If not our team then who?? To find a cure money is needed.. follow my link and donate!! PLEASE! Don't let another child die from CF!! Please

http://www.cff.org/Great_Strides/dsp_DonationPage.cfm?walkid=6915&idUser=340374


ANDERSONS ARMY ALL THE WAY

LETS DO THIS THING!!

RIP CONNER JONES... Stay safe in Gods arms.. Breathe Free..


Busy Bee
J

Because it makes us stronger....

Sometimes life throws us a curve ball...a problem... People say that God only gives us what we can handle. People say the strong just keep getting stronger. What if we are all strong enough??

I have seen heartache through so many others eyes lately, that it hurts my heart. The pain of a child dying is 1 thing, but to see it in such an abundance.. well frankly.. IT SUCKS! Sids, and CF, and Heart conditions taking our precious children.

It makes me thankful, but at the same time makes me hurt. I don't want others to suffer.. I don't want others to have to go through this pain. I know Gods grace is there, but what if they do not?

So this is a moment of silence, for those who have been lost or sick lately... For Marcus,and Mina, for Connor who's is still with us fighting one breath at a time. Everyone breathe deep, and sigh that you have your family, you are safe, and you've made it through another day... And say a silent blessing to these tiny babies...Babies that have/are struggling...And kiss your children one extra time tonight.

Live everyday like it is your last.... Say kind things, love like its going to run out, and breathe...breathe because you can!

BELIEVE AND IT WILL BE
Busy Bee
J

A new chapter of life...

At times I sit back and think about my life, sometimes just because and other times there is a monumental event that happens.. a catastrophe.. a bad moment, that makes me look in retrospect to what my life is all about. I think that on certain points the person i had become was not the person i envisioned myself as becoming. Getting down to the logistics of it.... I was disappointed in me. Disappointed in my life, and disappointed in general. This of course came about because of a big "catastrophe" where i behaved ... well stupid... just plain stupid that's the only way I can even begin to compare or talk about the way it happened and the way i was.

I think the thing is that life is SO stressful at times, that you can actually forget about the simple things that make it special. The overwhelmingness ( i made this word up LOL) that is life takes a hold, and its full throttle 90 mil;es an hour constantly.. without looking back or seeing what we have mowed down in the process.. Whether it be our friends, family or our marriage.

For most people when it gets to this point they don't even realize it until its too late, and they are left in the dust trying to pick up the many pieces of life..Thankfully I saw it happening in slow motion, mind you, right in front of me...

I didn't like who i was becoming and the negative effect that I was having on the family around me.

So jump in postive changes.... I started re reading and studying hard some of the lessons out of our last Relief Society book, and i stumbled across the Lesson on Eternal Marriage.. Its funny because it is Joseph Smiths recillection of his own Marriage, and of how he treated his family and most of all how he treated his wife. It's fair to say that I still find myself learning so much from him.. even though i think I have learned all there is to learn, i feel his spirit guiding me to re read his thoughts and actions.. and What a blessing it has been...

I am starting to focus on the "JOY". The happy points of my life, the blessings that I have received etc.. The Simple Joys that my husband gives me everyday, and telling him those joys to ensure that he knows that I see the good.. (even if that particular day we are surrounded by bad) I am taking pride in my home, and loving my family. Not sweating the small stuff.. WHO CARES if maddy is whining.. she will whine and she will get over it.. theres no reason to stress. Everything will get taken care of eventually.. no matter what happens.

These small changes have made such an immense difference in my marriage, in my children, in my heart. I swear it has grown 4 times in the last week. I have so much love pulsing through it that its crazy. I have missed my husband.. truly missed him to the point of pain, and almost wanting to cry, I haven't missed him like that in years. Not to say that I loved him less or more, but the way I feel for him now is truley different than any other time in our marriage.

I do not plan on changing anything back to the way i was, nor do i say that everything is just changes in me, other things have changed as well, in him. I hope this is what the future holds because i know that i can live everyday knowing I am coming home to this happiness.

Nevertheless neither is the man without the woman, neither the woman without the man, in the Lord. First Corinthians 11:11

I will Find Joy, Find it in all things, So then i may find Peace.

Peace and love to all
Busy Bee J